This Darkness Mine by Mindy McGinnis
My rating: 4 of 5 stars
Summary provided by publisher:
Sasha Stone knows her place–first-chair clarinet, top of her class, and at the side of her oxford-wearing boyfriend. She’s worked her entire life to ensure that her path to Oberlin Conservatory as a star musician is perfectly paved.
But suddenly there’s a fork in the road, in the shape of Isaac Harver. Her body shifts toward him when he walks by, her skin misses his touch even though she’s never known it, and she relishes the smell of him–smoke, beer, and trouble–all the things she’s avoided to get where she is. Even worse, every time he’s near Sasha, her heart stops, literally. Why does he know her so well–too well–and she doesn’t know him at all?
Sasha discovers that her by-the-book life began by ending another’s: the twin sister she absorbed in the womb. But that doesn’t explain the gaps of missing time in her practice schedule or the memories she has of things she certainly never did with Isaac. As Sasha loses her much-cherished control, her life–and heart–become more entangled with Isaac. Armed with the knowledge that her heart might not be hers alone, Sasha must decide what she’s willing to do–and who she’s willing to hurt–to take it back.
Edgar Award–winning author Mindy McGinnis delivers a dark and gripping psychological thriller about a girl at war with herself, and what it really means to be good or bad.
This is going to be hard to review! So many of the things I want to mention are spoilers, but because I’d decided a long time ago I wouldn’t post them, even if they are hidden, then I will have to review this book the best that I can without giving away anything crucial.
So, I will start off with our MC, Sasha Stone. As you’ve already learned, she is pretty much as perfect as one could get without getting Biblical, and initially, her “perfection” and “high standards” just come off as annoying. She’s such a snob, and she forces her ideology onto anyone who dares to speak to her. All in all, she sounds like a real winner when it comes to the MC lottery, am I right?? Well, she doesn’t become likable or anything close to that, no, it’s all in the fact that her character became more interesting to me. I still hated her guts, and would likely have pushed her into the path of a moose or bear if I needed a distraction to save my life (I live in Alaska, so, yes, this can be relevant), but I became more intrigued by this idea that she’s missing time, and happens to find out she’d absorbed her twin in the womb. Now, I hope you’ve Sherlocked your way into realizing that these various hints mean that because she’d absorbed her twin, she absorbed everything from her…including her personality. And if you hadn’t figured that out and think I’ve given away a spoiler, then I don’t think this book is for you…
Anyway, so because of this “introduction” of a twin to this story, Sasha definitely began to interest me more, leading to my enjoying this book way more.
Then there are the people in Sasha’s life. I’ll only mention some of them, because to say anything about the latter few will be too telling of a something big that happens, so henceforth, vague I shall continueth to be!
Where was I again?
Oh, people in Sasha’s life, right.
Okay, so there exist her parents, a mother and father each. Each have their roles, though neither seem to impart the warm and fuzzy feelings that come with being a family, they seem to be good enough people and take care of our annoying MC as well as parents can.
Then there are her two friends, Brooke and Lilly. Brooke is way more interesting than Lilly, and I think it mostly has to do with her fascination of morbid things. In comparison, Lilly is milk toast. She’s boring and I’m not really sure what she brought to this trio’s friendship?? Besides that, she does exist in this book for a reason, and that I do understand.
Finally, we have Isaac (there does happen to be a “perfect” boyfriend, named Heath, but I don’t really feel there is any need to talk about Señor Douchelord, so I won’t). Isaac is the “bad boy” who is thrown into the mix because that’s what you do in YA books. You have to have a guy who “sees what others cannot…who brings out the best in you” and all that yadda yadda, so of course he’s introduced as a possible romantic interest, because wouldn’t that make the book more interesting?!
But, of course.
I liked Isaac and have nothing bad to say about him, though I did question his thought process when it came to a few things…a few things I won’t be mentioning… (Again, cause as the fantastic River Song would say, ‘Spoilers’.)
I really feel like this book kept me hooked. I was surprised when I’d read so many reviews in which people either did not like this book, or chose to DNF it, because once I’d started it, I was committed to finding out what Sasha’s deal was, and more about the absorbed twin. And the more I kept reading, the more I realized where this book was going. And the ending? I LOVED it! I really wish I could say why, but I will say that it helped reinforce my dislike for Sasha, and if you read this book to the end, you’ll likely see why.
Honestly, I’m not sure you’ll like this book, judging by how many seem not to, but I really liked it and just found it to be really entertaining! So if my review interested you at all, then you should definitely read this book and let me know what you think of it!
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